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One driving course costs about 1800 bucks according to my pa. If i'm unable to pass the driving test, i'll probably need 2k+ for my entire driving course. I MUST try to PASS on my first driving test!!
Yesterday, i was asking my pa various questions, such as stopping on a slope, and accelerating again without moving backwards. such a skill certainly needs a lot of practice. My pa was telling me all the procedures and i thought, how do you process this many steps just to accelerate up the slope? Not only so, you must note the gear number and so on. i was so confused when he explained that i simply got him to demonstrate to me at our house's multi-storey carpark. I can't imagine when i have to do it myself.
After which, i went to sit at the driver's seat to have a taste of what it's like to be a driver. I took note of what i'm supposed to see at the side mirrors and rear mirror. Apparently, i'm too short (or am i?) hence i was unable to see certain details which they (my bro n pa) could. If my pa was to let me drive his car (or practise) after i get my licence, he would have to adjust the side mirrors all the time.
Then, i practised switching gears. I managed to get hit gear 1 to gear 5 on my first try but i simply could not get the reverse gear...siann... i was lyke using aLL my strength to push it towards the reverse gear. Then my pa commented, "you are quite violent lehz... crock crock crock..." First try mar...can't help it... i don't really noe how much strength to exert...
Next time, i must study when to use what gear. i don't think i'll need gear 5 in Singapore since the speed limit is soooo low.
i can't wait for post- alvls... i wanna get my licence!!
My physics... i thought i got a B... but then, i noticed a huge marking error in the paper while Mr Lee was going through today, and there goes my B!! well, at least my grades can make up a word already...
I have been thinking, how do you gauge maturity? Is being philosophical equivalent to maturity? Or does age correspond to level of maturity? Or having more experiences will increase your level of maturity? I've been doubting that. My father told me, i must start learning to speak in a way that is "acceptable" to adults, or rather, in a mature or "adult" way and not argue my way through in an impolite manner. I don't find my logics wrong. They make sense, even if it meant unacceptable to my father. My father holds his views very strongly, just as I do. I call him stubborn, but i'm stubborn too. Perhaps it's time to think things from a different perspective, that different people have different mindsets.
Well age definitely do not correspond to maturity. When i was mapling, the usual event occurred, the infamous "ks" or "kill-steal". A high level professional accused me of bullying his character when i didn't even go near him. He chased me around the map in the game, obstructing my hunting process. Knowing this, i simply let him chase him, trying to out-run him on several occasions and i did succeed. After which, we started deliberating. He declared that he's no longer a student when i assumed that he was a kid. So i told him such actions of his were childish because i can easily avoid them, though not wanting to. He resorted to calling me a dog and so on...i simply do not want to play on with him... why turn to vulgarities when you are no longer able to argue over a person? It's sad to know that a game, popular among youngsters, is flooded with vulgarities.
Hmmz, never mind about maturity.
"When was the last time you've been praised? When was the last time you praised someone?"
In response to the tags.... --------------------->
i'll blog, even if the blog entry is senseless =D
I got crazy over a song!! It's "fate" or "In-yeon" by Lee Sun-hee. What's following this sentence is the translation of the song.
Promise me that when this moment's over and we meet again
That we can put everything in the past and stand by each other
This is what we call fate, it's something we can't deny
Will I ever experience another day as glorious as today?
You're a gift upon this exhausting path of life
I'll continuously wash and shine our love so it won't rust away
Our meeting was short like a drunken affair, but it was real
Even though this cannot last, I won't resent it because nothing is forever
This is what we call fate, it's something we can't deny
Will I ever experience another day as glorious as today?
There's so much I want to say, but you probably already know
When we meet again some time in the future
Please don't let go again
The love we couldn't have in this life
The fate we couldn't live in this life
When we meet again some time in the future
Please don't let go of me
It's very touching. Especially while watching the trailer, and listening to the song, it is exceptionally emotion-triggering...
Anyway, i just couldn't understand why people are over-concerned about certain issues. it may seem extremely insignificant to one, but yet, anger-triggering to another. It may seem as a joke to one, but to another, it's a serious offence. Well, i myself experienced incidents when i'm extremely petty, unwillingly to forgive the other party even though it's just a joke. i guess one must be more forgiving and willing to take things in their stride.
It's sick when someone don't appreciate your efforts. Perhaps an A is more important than anything. The result is everything, not the process, even if the result is an anomaly.
"You've deproved. stop playing so much games. please spend more time on your books."
and when i mug, you say, "can you like...stop staying at the table for such long periods of time? spend some time walking around or going out of the house."
What do you want me to do? Get good results? Exercise more? Stop playing? Why am i getting so stressed over exams for? isn't it for you? Tell me that i'm not stressed because of you.
Tell you. Allow me to transfer to some other school pls. I'll obtain the 4 As you want. happy?
| ~ IcYiLLuSioNs ~ 10:46 PM |
CONCERT HAS ENDED!!
This has marked the end of my school CO life... i feel sort of sad...
Anyway...
Thanks to Meixuan, Huiyi and FeL! for coming to support me at the concert despite being unable to appreciate CO music totally...LOL... but really thanks a lot... AND YES.... that flattened bun, I ATE IT AFTER THE CONCERT... lol... a great cure for hunger...
Thanks to ruowei, jaey and em for your moral support through smses although you all can't make it to the concert...
QING SHAN!! Thanks for coming oso!! i like that heart! i noe both of you love me ya? and i miss both of you a lot... interval was too short for me... and i couldn't find both of you after the concert for hugs and kisses... we must meet up k? still got a lot a lot of things to say!!
Thanks to all the seniors and sharon who came to support us too.. OMG I MISS U ALL LAR!! lol... reminds me of the period of time during syf we spent together as the 2005 XYZ... =D
Thanks to all the juniors!! for the cute cushion, the "calendar", and of cos, all the fun we had together. We rock the stage as XYZ'06. We had a great time together!
Lastly, my own batchmates. We rock larr... nothing else to sae...
No more school CO alreadi... life will be quite sian ba... without those laughters and gossips... Bleahhhhz...
| ~ IcYiLLuSioNs ~ 11:51 AM |
Tml's the concert...
i feel... apprehensive?
It has been a long journey.... went through SYF and all sorts of performances. Met different people... had my share of pain, sadness, loneliness, happiness and enjoyment. Tomorrow will be quite a significant day as it marks the end of my hcco life. It may not be a formal end...but it shall be the last time i'm performing with hcco. I hope i can enjoy tomorrow.
Feeling tensed and stressed now. Hopefully, i wun flop my parts. Usually, i'm hidden inside the group. This time, it's quite different...
Em says that the eyes are a bit funnie... i dunno...
Tzeyi says...neck a bit funnie...
I say, everything seems funnie...LOL!!
| ~ IcYiLLuSioNs ~ 11:54 PM |
My first day of ludibrium adventure:Didn't really know how ludibrium was like... there was no world map or whatsoever. So i grabbed lamemage to explore with me. Got free heal =D
Eos tower is a nitemare! A NITEMARE! two of us happily jumped down from the 100th level to the 1st level, thinking that it's like orbis tower, where there'll be an exit at the bottom. When we reached level 1, we realised...there was no exits =.= 100 LEVELS!!! amazing... orbis' 20 levels were nitemares to me... now we have 100... great... no scrolls, nothing... rot there and die... Meaniesinx (fortunately!) was online... he summoned his fren's priest to save us by using mystic door. In fact, he wasn't saving only us, but MANY others who were stuck there and probably crying alreadi...
Mystic door is freaking cool! you get teleported out of eos tower to ludibrium which is 100 levels away... well...i shall just stick to rockie and train her. Lightning mages are suited to train in eos tower. This is because the range the monsters could go is rather small, which is about the range of lightning strike. Spawn rate is rather high too.
Once both of us were out, we went on to explore toy factory with our tourguide meanie. There were cute bears, cakes, mouses stuck in clocks and so on until we reached "path of time". It's a gorgeous place... the art...veri nice...
So... we went in... jumping cautiously to avoid those high damage monsters...
I got killed when we were about to reach another map... by
or
They are about level 80+ i think...one damage from them is 1000+... 3 attacks from them, i say goodbye...
Then i went back to find lamemage and meaniesinx while they continued exploring... it's quite exciting, trying to avoid, and waiting for the best opportunity to jump to avoid being hit... lol...
We reached the warped passage... where the gate keeper is hiding... Meaniesinx died a few times there because it appeared from nowhere and injured him. 3 of us just chiong.... chiong pass a pro... and a gatekeeper appeared.
So we watched at a side, while the pro killed the gatekeeper.
Happy that we were safe, we went on, to the Thanatos map. Pros were killing them and we just watched at a side again. Lamemage and I went on to the nex map, only to find ourselves surrounded by stupidly high level monsters again at the portal!! we quickly teleported back to the Thanatos map. Another Thanatos appeared and a sin was killing it.
Two of us were pushed right to the side of the map and was screaming in silence, " oh FREAK!! QUICK DIE!! i dun wanna get killed!!" Once the Thanatos touches me, i can say goodbye, again. Fortunately the Thanatos turned away while the sin killed it. Whew... we walked back... and another Thanatos appeared... PUSHING US TO THE SIDE AGAIN!!! "OH FREAK!! move away! move awaY!! ARGHHZ!!!" The sin escaped and 2 of us got killed...
Happy Ending!!
2nd day of adventure:
PQ (party quest) DAE!! Theif(that's his nick...his spelling error) and I went to the pq area... Set up our party, and got ready for pq-ing. I went around tracking the people as usual (quoted from bun: "she can be PI alreadi...pro stalker!!") BleahhHz... We waited for HOURS and we missed quite a few party quests because another group went in first. In that few hours, bun managed to level and he chiong to ludibrium from victoria island...90k mesos fly... When he reached, we kicked people out and the 3 PQ KHAKIS REUNITED AT LUDIBRIUM!! Reminiscing our past...pq-ing was a great memory for the 3 of us. Now, we re-live our memories =D
We missed a few times again, until bun and i wanted to go off, we got in =D
It was a rather screwed PQ, cos many of us were first timers. LOL... The first time we went in, we lost one pass to the next stage and we were literally stuck there, unable to move back or progress. We rushed out, only to find no one outside! then we got in again. This time, all of us were careful... At the boss monster stage, a freaking big monster appeared! ALISHAR!!
It could curse and seal people's skills... i got sealed twice, but having holy water, that was no threat to me. Juz kept whacking it with ice (without a single miss) and it died, of course =D It was fun =D Still, we preferred the kerning PQ, cos it's faster. But ludi PQ is quite fun oso =D
Hope 3 of us can pq together again before we level. All of us are at lvl 50 alreadi...one more level, no more pq.
| ~ IcYiLLuSioNs ~ 12:53 PM |
Jung Test Results
Introverted (I) 66.67% Extroverted (E) 33.33%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N) 50%
Feeling (F) 54.17% Thinking (T) 45.83%
Judging (J) 54.17% Perceiving (P) 45.83%
Your type is: ISFJ
Something wrong with the blog template... but i shall make do with it... it doesn't matter...
Your Type is ISFJIntroverted -> 89%
Sensing -> 1%
Feeling -> 12%
Judging -> 11%
Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:
very expressed introvert
slightly expressed sensing personality
slightly expressed feeling personality
slightly expressed judging personality
Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging by Marina Margaret Heiss
Profile: ISFJ
ISFJs are characterized above all by their desire to serve others, their "need to be needed." In extreme cases, this need is so strong that standard give-and-take relationships are deeply unsatisfying to them; however, most ISFJs find more than enough with which to occupy themselves within the framework of a normal life. (Since ISFJs, like all SJs, are very much bound by the prevailing social conventions, their form of "service" is likely to exclude any elements of moral or political controversy; they specialize in the local, the personal, and the practical.)
ISFJs are often unappreciated, at work, home, and play. Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them. Admittedly, the problem is sometimes aggravated by the ISFJs themselves; for instance, they are notoriously bad at delegating ("If you want it done right, do it yourself"). And although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as low-profile Is, their actions don't call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.) Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomatic illnesses.
In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others. ISFJs make pleasant and reliable co-workers and exemplary employees, but tend to be harried and uncomfortable in supervisory roles. They are capable of forming strong loyalties, but these are personal rather than institutional loyalties; if someone they've bonded with in this way leaves the company, the ISFJ will leave with them, if given the option. Traditional careers for an ISFJ include: teaching, social work, most religious work, nursing, medicine (general practice only), clerical and and secretarial work of any kind, and some kinds of administrative careers.
While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle--and often possessive of their loved ones, as well. When these include Es who want to socialize with the rest of the world, or self-contained ITs, the ISFJ must learn to adjust to these behaviors and not interpret them as rejection. Being SJs, they place a strong emphasis on conventional behavior (although, unlike STJs, they are usually as concerned with being "nice" as with strict propriety); if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment: the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the embarrassment (a fact which many of their teenage children take gleeful advantage of). Over time, however, ISFJs usually mellow, and learn to regard the culprits as harmless eccentrics :-). Needless to say, ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones--although strong Js may tend to focus more on what the recipient should want rather than what they do want.
Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. (However, like most Fs they hate confrontation; if you get into a fight, don't expect them to jump in after you. You can count on them, however, run and get the nearest authority figure.) Unlike with EPs, the older the friendship is, the more an ISFJ will value it. One ISFJ trait that is easily misunderstood by those who haven't known them long is that they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. For instance, an ISFJ child may be reproved for "sulking," the actual cause of which is a combination of physical illness plus misguided "good manners." An adult ISFJ may drive a (later ashamed) friend or SO into a fit of temper over the ISFJ's unexplained moodiness, only afterwards to explain about a death in the family they "didn't want to burden anyone with." Those close to ISFJs should learn to watch for the warning signs in these situations and take the initiative themselves to uncover the problem.
Functional Analysisby Joe ButtIntroverted Sensing
As for ISTJs, the dominant Si is oriented toward the world of forms, essences, generics. Again, "for both of the IS_J types, the sense of propriety comes from the clear definition of these internal forms. ... A 'proper' chair has four legs," etc. (Jung saw IS as something of an oxymoron: sensing, which is a perceiving function, focused inward and thus away from that which is perceived (the "object"). In this light, he described this sensing as something removed from reality, full of archetypes/mythical figures/hobgoblins; sensing of one's own set of forms.)
Extraverted Feeling
A kind of "regression toward the mean" provided by the Fe auxiliary function serves to socialize the expression of these forms. I suppose it's the auxiliary nature of this Feeling, coupled with the balancing effect of {detachment from the internal idiosyncratic view of free-floating data perceptions} that makes ISFJs tentative, conservative, and reticent to boldly state the rights and wrongs in the relational world. (Loosely translated, ISFJs like to keep their perceptions to themselves, and aren't sure enough that what they "see" as Introverted Sensors has any relevance to the outside world. Thus the perception, based on unworldly data, may not be true. The obedient Extraverted Feeling function must therefore refrain from strong statements expressing these opinions.)
Introverted Thinking
Introverted Thinking is turned inward and is largely invisible. It is only with great difficulty, if at all, that the ISFJ could willingly commit anyone to their doom. Perhaps this explains why ISFJs are loyal to the end; there is no sense of purely objective (i.e., impersonal) judgement of anyone but themselves (and that only by their own standards). Here is this type's achilles heel that makes many of them so vulnerable to the scoundrels and ne'er-do-wells who often use and abuse them.
Extraverted iNtuitionISFJs are easily undone by Extraverted iNtuition, their inferior function. Believing in the fantastic, and disbelieving the technologically extant, are errors that my guide the gullible (or unfoundedly sceptical) ISFJ off a precipice of mis-conclusion. (One of our co-workers' mothers adamantly refused to believe that Dave Letterman's mom was actually at the olympics in Norway talking with the athletes and handing out hams! She suspected technological trickery.)
This childlike Ne is, however, the likely source (coupled with fun-loving Extraverted Feeling) of the practical joking, punning and (usually harmless) impishness of some ISFJs.
PS : Emily... my percentage for "I" getting as big as yours...i dun believe it...
Golden retrievers -> when they are young, they are SUPER CUTE!! when they are old, they are SUPER BIG AND CUTE!! generally more gentle i think. They make good companions but HDB flats dun allow them. Always look as if they are perpetually smiling at you.
Schnauzers -> i prefer miniature schnauzers. small small dog walk around... look so young and yet so old... but generally noiser...always hear my neighbour's schnauzers bark bark bark...
Chihuahua -> too small and skinny...not nice to hug... the barks are rather shrill too...
Jack Russell -> too active. slackers like me cannot handle them. still, they are veri cute.
Huskies -> too ex. Even if can afford to buy one, oso can't afford to keep it for long...
Maltese -> dun like the hair...like the face only... round round one...
Collies -> too hairy? i dunno... but i lyke the lassie type of collie
German shepherd -> cute when young...old liaoz quite scary...
Labrador -> no hair one...not nice to hug...
Dalmatians -> cute in the movie lar...but in real life are they that cute?
Still got wad dogs?? ARrr....din memorise enough...
| ~ IcYiLLuSioNs ~ 10:29 PM |
